May 2, 2022 (Screenplay Available Now)

Over the last two years, I have been working on a screenplay that I have been submitting to the industry. I submitted it for a review on BLKLST and told myself if it scored a 7 or higher I would publish it. I will attach the review I received at the bottom of this blog for people to check out, as well as a link to the screenplay. The entire script is free to read here on my website. It is also available on Kindle, and you can purchase a paperback for $9.99 if interested.

Website link (Free PDF)

Kindle/Paperback The name of the script is Cancelled, and the logline for the film is: After being cancelled, a failed comedian with Bipolar and BPD comes to terms with the consequences of his abusive past. I wanted to write a story that explored what it means to be someone who has an abusive past but wants to move forward as a good person, and the challenges having Bipolar and BPD present for creating and maintaining healthy relationships. It is ultimately a story exploring what it means to be an abuser who wants to break the cycle they have created for themselves, and the scars their behavior leaves on others. It is a story shaped by my own past, and not something I could have written if I hadn't been the person I was and had the failures I have had. I want to be a good person and someone people can be proud of. I want to have and maintain healthy relationships and treat people well, and I want to take all the regret and shame I have and use it to better myself. I want to know if it is possible for me to redeem myself in my life and the eyes of others or am, or if I am damned forever. I take my therapy and medication seriously and have been doing what it takes to stay healthy. I don't ever want to be that person again, I hate my past and who I was. This is the first screenplay I have ever written and I am very proud of it. I am interested to see if people enjoy it or think the review is similar to how you feel about it, and I would love some reviews on it so please send me your thoughts to nickhartkop@mccaffertyband.com if you have time to read and review it. The next screenplay I am beginning to write is a horror movie and I will publish that too when it is eventually done. To anyone who takes the time to check it out, thank you. I have poured my soul into it and hope it is a movie people will enjoy. I will do a detailed breakdown of the story and what I wanted to create thematically as time passes and people get a chance to read it before spoiling anything. (On a side note, I have about 200 emails in my inbox that I have been trying to get through, and I apologize for the late response, I promise that I will get back to you shortly, my focus has been on finishing this script. I also am going to try to head into the studio within the next month or two for a new song.) Nick

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May 25, 2022 (New McCafferty Updates)

I uploaded a phone demo I have been sitting on for a while. It's called Insincere Everclear and it's an acoustic song. I have booked July 6th with a studio to record a new McCafferty song, Liquid Courage. I am starting to work on my next script which is a horror story titled, Strawberry.

McCafferty and writing is the only thing that gives me purpose in my life and I owe everything to anyone who listens. I hope everyone is doing well and I will be getting to emails to respond soon so if you sent something in, I will make sure to get back to you.

I went to California to Disneyland for the first time last week and it was a lot of fun, I have been scared to be around crowds since Covid started because I have an intense fear of dying before I do something with my life, and being able to move past that fear and be social was really important to me.

I love music and words so much and am grateful for the opportunity to express myself and have people listen. Thank you for giving me direction in my life.

I am working with my team to make a full merch line hopefully by the end of the year also. I want to do hoodies, T-shirt’s, hats and even reprint some of my vinyls. All the proceeds will be donated to Easterseals. I don’t have any specific dates but it’s something I will get to because I miss having and wearing McCafferty merchandise.

Thank you to everyone who follows the blog and listens to the music. Talk soon

Nick

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March 30, 2022 (My Chemical Romance Radio)

My Chemical Romance has forever been my favorite band (tied with The Killers and Blink-182) and the biggest accomplishment I have had in music is being added to their Spotify Radio. It is really surreal to me that my music has traveled so much that I am now related to and part of my favorite artist's page. I don't have many things I am proud of regarding my music, but this is something I will never forget and am incredibly thankful for. It's crazy that out of all the bands in the world mine made it to their rotation. I want to thank everyone who listens and connects with the music.

I haven’t gotten to any emails since the start of March so if you have sent something in, I will get back to you. I have been focusing on my therapy and have started new antidepressants alongside antipsychotics and it's been something I am adjusting to. I am thankful for the love and support of my family and other people who listen and I promise not to let anyone down with my treatment. I am still really afraid of being forgotten and am incredibly insecure and regretful of my failures, but I am trying to start to move on with my life and not focus on them all day everyday. I wish I could go back in time and not hurt people and myself and I am thankful for my treatment and being able to get help to finally be the person I should be and want to be. I wish I didn't have this desire to be liked by everyone because it's pathetic and impossible to achieve, but I hope that before I die people can see that I truly have changed and am a good person.

Nick

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